Hey friends! I am so so so sorry for the really long delay in updating about my last surgery, or any entry for that matter. I’ve been going through extreme fatigue, waking up around 2 every day and can’t seem to get up earlier and no idea why and I think a have become a bit depressed due to the complications and trouble doing MORE things on my own with my hand like this! This might explain the lack of desire to wake up, do my blog and aside from my much worse back problems (which will be a separate entry soon I hope) getting off my couch or going anywhere and always being tired. I only leave the house when I have a Dr. appointment, granted I have one at LEAST once a week but usually 4-6! This has become my life and it’s a little depressing because I used to be fun! I used to hate sitting around the house and I HAD to always be doing something. Now with my hand and back issues, along with my left ankle which has gotten so bad I can’t walk more than ten minutes (again, another entry with all of the worsening joints creeping up fast!) I sit on the couch and watch re-runs of Dr. Phil and Ellen. LOL LOVE THEM! I would also do more entries if it wasn’t for the trouble typing. I am so grateful to the person who gave me the dragon program however it’s an older version and very slow so typing, even with me useless hand, is actually faster, even with all the mistakes. But it does hurt and is quite hard to do. I think I might need the newest dragon software unfortunately. This entry will be an update on my last surgery, plate removal due to the screws coming loose (kind of like me!! Haha), a new plate put in and the tendon transfer to get my hand to open and fingers to work again.
Welllllll…. I went In for surgery as planned and at my 8 day post op appointment the physical therapist made me a splint that limited elbow mobility to avoid the plate moving and kept my fingers from moving as well. Nothing really special about the post op appointment. Everything looked fine. I just had to wear this ridiculous looking splint for two weeks. I went back two weeks later for x-rays and a wound check just to make sure my incisions were healing rather than opening up like one did with the first surgery. I haven’t made it to my next post op because I was sick and had to reschedule so nothing on that yet. At that point, the 3 week post op appointment, I was told the PT/OT office will call to make an appointment so I can start working on my fingers about twice a week for a month to start and see what progress I’ve made and decide how much more therapy I’d need. She also told me no weight bearing yet (pretty much don’t pick anything up or use it at all) because I’ve had so many problems with this wrist since surgery.
A couple of days later I get a call from the PT office and schedule my first appointment for that Friday. About 30 minutes later they call me back and inform me that my secondary insurance, which pays all of my copays and deductible, will not pay the $40 copay each visit because it’s considered long term care. I had to cancel and can’t go to physical therapy so naturally, my hand still won’t open and fingers won’t move. My right hand is now useless all because of a complication in a wrist fusion surgery back in January. Straight wrist, messed up hand. My Primary care dr had her PT give me a list of exercises to do from home which I do but no change. PT pushes you harder than you can push yourself so my hand is still stuck. I just can’t afford $80 a week for an unknown amount of time, or even just one week.
I think this is a big reason for the depression. My hand is worse than before now, looks worse and is useless. I know that it will take a few months to a year to get it working again (if the surgery even worked) because I have so much scar tissue from all the surgeries I’ve had this year, and so close together. But it’s been 6 weeks since this surgery and no progress at all. My thumb wasn’t touched during surgery so that still won’t move out from under my fingers at all. First she said it’s a tendon that needs to be released so I’m wondering why she didn’t do that at the same time but at post op she said it needs to be fused. Are you kidding me?? Despite the lack of pain in my wrist joint since the fusion, I’m seriously regretting this surgery. It has caused more problems than it’s worth!
Anyway, that’s where I’m at right now. If my next appointment (once I reschedule it) has anything interesting to write about, I will be sure to let you all know sooner. Otherwise, I will write about some of the other things going on. Thanks for your patience.
As a side note, my domain name will be changing to bionicmom.com soon. Not sure when yet but I will let you all know when it gets closer to the switch. Thanks! And as always, thanks for reading my story!
And as always, much love from… well, you know… The Bionic Mom!
“You will never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.”